I remember!

As the winds flow through my hair. I remember!
As the cold summer waters touch my toes. I remember!
As the songs of sweet lullabies help me to sleep. I remember!
As the writings of my stories touch hearts. I remember!


I remember! I remember each memory of my life as if someone had written it in a book. I remember when the winds flowed through my hair, calming me ever so gently. I remember the cold summer waters that touched my tiny little toes. making me giggle ever so loudly. I remember the songs of sweet lullabies, putting me to me ever so relaxingly. I remember the writings of my stories, touching many hearts ever so sweetly.


I remember when I was a baby the winds that flowed through my hair, sometimes my mom seemed to think the wind was the one thing that would calm me down when I cried. I remember when I was a baby the cold summer waters of Rocky Neck Beach that made me giggle so loudly, my mom had to pick me up so I was not to disturb others. I remember when my mom used to sing sweet lullabies to me, that put me to sleep at night. I remember when I was a child writing such great stories about my life, describing what I wanted to be when I grew up.


With such great memories like these ones, it's hard to believe that the memories aren't the last of what I will remember. I still have memories to create with Jason. I still have memories to dream up. I still have memories to build; when we have children of our own.


Memories can only be remembered, if you never let them go. If you let go, there will not be anything to remember.


I always used to say this, "If memories are always there to be remembered, then why have pictures, because remembering them for generations to come is the best way to keep them; forever in the mind, body and soul of everyday life." - Erica Renee Goguen

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NOT APART OF MY FAMILY!

Let me ask you folks this question:

If someone in your family dies like a grandfather lets say and he is the last one in the house and it is up to his kids not grand kids, but the kids to take care of the house; you know clean it out take the memories they want and everything, out before they foreclose the house or whatever. So if the week before they foreclose the house your mother tells you that on Sunday we are going to your grandfather's to say our last good byes, but during the rest of the week you have been working your ass off and forgot all about what she told you and on Monday. You are on facebook and see photos posted of your sister kids standing in front of the house. And then the next day Tuesday you have a dentist appointment and ask your mom so I saw the pictures my sister posted of my niece and nephew standing in front of Pepere's house and my sister telling everyone that they were saying their last good byes. And then all of sudden your mom says " Actually I was surprised to not see you there." And you respond by saying, "I would have been there if someone actually told me about it." And she says, "Well, I did." And then there is just a whole argument of, no you didn't and yes I did. So, After she drops you back off at work. You say to yourself, well then, why didn't she call me to remind me or say something to me when she noticed I wasn't there and knew that I really wanted to be there. Since it was a house that I practically grew up at.


WHAT WOULD YOU HAVE SAID TO HER OR YOUR FAMILY IF YOU WERE IN MY SHOES THAT DAY?

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Showing People and Getting Reactions

Lately, since I have gotten my butterfly tattoo I have been showing it off. I've shown it off to my best friend's parents. And my dad, my mom however, wont let me show her it. And recently, my boss. It is awesome everyone loves it because it is small not enormous. It is just simple and small and beautiful.

By the way: I forgot to mention in my My First Tattoo blog the reason why got my Butterfly tattoo. So, my reasons are one my grandfather Pepere Goguen who passed away a few years ago. Two grandmother Memere Guilmette who passed only 2 years ago and 5 days after my birthday.

I am now going to describe for you what has been said by everyone:

Jason:

Considering he was sitting right there next to me the whole time. He continued to tell me that it was looking great. And that it was going to be ok. So just relax he also told me he loved it.

My Dad:

Dad tells me it is cool very simple, very much something I would get done.

My Mom:

Mom says she doesn't even know me anymore. She doesn't even know what I am thinking lately.

My best friend's parents:

Her Dad:

At first when he saw it through a camera he couldn't believe that I had actually gotten a tattoo, but when he physically saw it he couldn't believe how wonderful it looked.

Her Mom:

At first she was as well a skeptic and couldn't believe it. Once, she actually saw it on my back she told me it was beautiful. And very me!

Alycia:

Even though, Alycia went to Fine Line with Jason and myself. She told me it was absolutely amazing when it was finished.

Ray:

He thought it was cool. Says he wants to get one done, too.

Emily a friend of Jason and I:

She just saw it 6/1/11 at Dunkin Donuts. She says it was sweet very beautiful as well. And she wants to get one herself. I told her to go for it. And don't listen to mom or dad.

My future in - laws:

They didn't find out the way I had hoped and now that they know and now that I told them the reason for getting it done they understood. They just thought it was bad timing that's all that is why they both got so upset.

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My First Tattoo

My first Tattoo.

I received my very first tattoo today. At age 21 going on 22 in a matter of a couple weeks. It was my time. Today even though I had been planning it for the last two weeks, I finally sat in the chair at Connecticut's Oldest Tattoo Parlour called Fine Line.



At Fine Line, I sat backwards in a chair with my loving fianc'e Jason in front of me while holding his hand I hummed to the music playing in the background. At the same time my best friend Alycia of about 12 years sat nearby.

So, I'm sitting in the chair and the guy starts and he went fast. I mean within like 10 minutes he was already 3/4 of the way done. I had to take a 5 minute break maybe less because as you know when it is your first time, most people have a tendency to almost pass out. Well, I did, but shortly after I had some serious chocolate I was done and so once he got back to doing it, it only took about another minute and a half and he was done.

So, I was happy I was finally finished. Thank god.

So, as the day went on my tattoo hurt only a little. Oh, if anyone wants to know my tattoo is a simple one a very simple one it is a Butterfly. It is very feminine, I love it, my fianc'e Jason loves it and so far it looks like my best friend Alycia likes it. The only few people who haven't yet seen it are my future in-laws and some of my own family members, but I plan on showing everyone on my birthday this year. Which to be honest with all of you it is just in 19 days about 3 weeks to go.

I'm planning on uploading photos of it on my facebook and twitter. It will be labeled my birthday present.

I got this butterfly tattoo to remind me of all the family members I have lost in the past years. It is to remind me that not only are they still around, but they are free and happy up in heaven; just like a BUTTERFLY, fluttering through the air. They are beautiful and yet they are mysterious.

When everyone finally looks at my butterfly tattoo they are going to think that it is as if a real butterfly just gently landed on my shoulder blade and stayed there.

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