Not Knowing What To Do (Part 2)

As you probably figured out by now I am having another issue where I do not know what to do. I wish I knew what to do. You all know by now that my boyfriend Jason and I are very much in love with each other, but when things like his boss Bob and Bob's boss don't allow me to come to Jason's work because it's frowned upon. Mainly because they think I distract Jason from doing his work.

The fact is, I love being there at Jason's work helping get things into the washers and dryers faster and helping him get out of work quicker. The reason I enjoy being at his work so much is so I can be with him all the time. The thing is I'm not allowed at his work as much as I want to be there.

Today, is not starting out that great for the two of us here at his work. I already feel like I can't put up with people telling me when and when I can not go to his work. It is getting so bad to the point where I can't choose between staying in this relationship with Jason or ending this relationship once and for all; all because I'm only allowed to go to his work on weekends.

I need help in trying to figure out what is the best and most important choice that needs to be made. I already told Jason that ending the relationship is the last thing I want to do, but since people feel they have the right to tell me how to run my life I feel like I want to end this very special relationship I have with Jason.

Some days, I have to sit around all day by myself in Jason's house and wait until he gets home. And if I'm not at his house doing nothing, I'm in his car watching movies. Sometimes I just wish he could go to his boss and tell bob that I'm coming in to help and I'm not leaving, but the thing is if Jason did that he might get fired and I don't want to feel like I cost him, his job. Especially, when it is such a great job and with benefits.

I guess all I'm saying is that, its not fair that every one is allowed to tell me how to run my life. My parents are slowly but surely backing off when it comes to who runs my life. For many years and still a little now and again my parents would control what I did, where I did, how I did, when I did anything in my life. But here is the thing they can't control my life if I'm never really around for them to even see me long enough. I mostly stay at Jason's house spending night after night over there. Yea, you could say its as if I moved out.

I do still see my parents every week. I just don't sleep there anymore. So yea, I guess I finally did get the so called freedom I was asking for. So I'm out of a job and all Jason and I live of off is how much money he gets paid each week. Well, all I have to say is, its better then getting paid every other week. At least, he has a paycheck coming to him ever Friday. Its so much better. Well, hopefully soon my time will come again. If not, I hope I have another better paying job before my own life ends.


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